I feel like I am in a state of transition. It makes sense as the planetary energies are dictating that right now. Change. Adjustments. As scary as it is sometimes, I am welcoming it with open arms in my life. I haven’t really liked where I have been. Somehow, at some point, I lost myself. Not that I was out wandering the Serengeti and didn’t know how to find my front door again….but I feel like I have been on this journey lately that hasn’t been mine.
I have been doing what I thought I SHOULD be doing. What was expected of me, rather than what made me truly happy. I put this whole pile of needs ahead of my own in order to “hustle” and “make moves”. Reality is, this “hustle” goes against everything that I love and the way I want to be living my life.
You see, I am of the mindset that if we are living a life of purpose and walking a path of love and compassion, our journeys will simply unfold in this beautiful way. The adventures will stretch out in front of us. Lessons will be mine for the taking. My needs will be met in a way that is healthy and I will be living my life filled with abundance. I believe this because this is how my life has been – until fairly recently.
The recent part is where I somehow got lost. I lost touch with that peaceful way that I wanted to be living. I got caught up in the hustle. People had convinced me that what I had at the time, wasn’t enough for me. I listened when they told me how exciting it would be to be doing more. I let them get in my head about what MY life should look like. None of this was their fault – it was 100% mine. I gave them that power.
And now, I am in the process of taking it back.
This web site is my version of my “work” life now. I still am leading yoga practices and offering personal fitness sessions. I am still doing one on ones with local clients and working with people online to change their health through nutrition and meditation. But I have missed writing something fierce. I have missed doing energy work almost as much.
I am getting back to what I love and I am trying to do that without an editing schedule staring at me. I am making this part of my life as personal as the rest. If you are here, and you are one of my amazing clients, this is me. I’m showing up at your cyber door without shoes and my coffee is in my hand. THIS is who I am.
If you have a moment, and feel inclined, share with me how you have maybe “gotten lost” before and I would love to hear how you have found or are planning to find your way back.